Jun 10, 2015

Tears of Joy...and Maybe Pain

There is a lot in store for me and that's something I'm working very hard to keep in mind. Just like there are positive movements, there have also been some negative trials.
Spoke with the rest of the Dynamism Arts team this past weekend to get the basics settled for our first training camp this Spring Break. Also, I have the opportunity to write and have my work filmed then spread throughout various media outlets. Those two things alone are exciting, but that isn't the end of it.
Not too long ago I discovered that there were some fraudulent charges to my credit and brought my score down pretty low. Learning that definitely discouraged me because I was hoping to move out within a year. Then comes saving grace after a week of freaking out about how I was gonna come up with $6,000. My Daddy put me in touch with a company who does credit repair and since then they've been working closely with me to help rid of those negative accounts while rebuilding my credit all at once.
Right after riding that high, I got into another rut. I ate at Taco Cabana, ended up biting into some foreign object, split my tooth in numerous places, and am still dealing with that. Unfortunately they aren't taking responsibility of the incident and that's been bogging me down.
BUT like I said...I'm trying to stay positive.

Nov 15, 2014

"Intentions" | Spoken Word | Cedric Dale Hoard | The Good Fight Studios

Check out this beautiful spoken word from my good friend Cedric Hoard. You won't be disappointed.

Sep 16, 2014

On Time God

I know myself to have been the person who could be dying inside and no one would know unless I decided to let it be known. With my naturally happy disposition, I felt my ability to ignore my emotions was a sign of strength and wore it like a badge of honor. Unfortunately, it took a good portion of my life lived to realize that ignoring my emotions only caused anger and bitterness.
Lately I've found myself resorting back to this behavior and allowing myself to numb everything when bad news came from every direction. While cleaning up tonight, I found letters from years ago and at the bottom of the stack was a letter I'd mailed to myself.
A lot of it was dead on but one particular part encouraged me the most. I wrote:
"Give everything over to Him so all the things He cleared you of will stay cleared. Forgiving, loving, being open, and letting God deal with the trials of life is the most helpful. Don't forget that! Keep your heart softened like He made it to be (and restored to be this weekend)...Stay humble! Stay joyful! Stay rooted! And do NOT be afraid to ask for help when you know you're on the verge of breaking. You can't do it on your own. You weren't meant to so stop trying."
I wrote this letter in August 2012 but apparently sent it late so it arrived to me September 16, 2012.
This is me being transparent. Life can be rough, but it isn't over until it's over, so don't allow yourself to live as if the end has already come. Feel, enjoy the goodness of whats around you, encourage others to do the same.
Don't hold on to the burdens of this world (cast your cares upon the Lord) and allow your heart to full of whatever is true, noble, pure, lovely, and admirable.
In Christ,
Allie J.