Dec 16, 2012

In Need of a Little Clarity


Lately it has been a huge deal for me to find out what the next thing is. With school, with ministry, and life in general. I'm in the place I am right now, about to step off of a ledge, and I have no clue what so ever what's next.All I know is what it is that I love and have a deep passion for. That's pretty much it...Can't even really clarify on what it is that I want to do after school anymore. I know what it is that would be nice, but ultimately I want what God wants and that has changed over the past year. He seems to be steering me towards things that pertain to what it is that I need to be doing by taking me away from situations that I need to get out of. But like I said...I don't have that clarity.
What remains is my love for Jesus, young adults, mentally ill and/or disabled people, theatre & film, and encouraging others. I have come to realize that I am empathetic to the point where I feel as if I can feel others pain and emotions. Like physically feel it to the point that I literally begin to hurt. That always makes me place myself in another persons spot to see things from their perspective. Even when done wrong I feel bad for that person because a lot of the time their actions were caused by something. Whether it be fear, hurt, or anger. Something pushed them to that point, and though  their action may not be right, it still makes me sad. You know...How powerful is a pain to cause someone to feel like they aren't worthy of living? To cause them to set out, intent on destroying others lives...It's grieves me terribly.
I know a part of what the Lord wants me to do because of the weight it places on my heart. He's given me a heart that wants very badly to not only let people know they're loved, but to somehow ensure they feel loved. And to know that they have worth and purpose.

 That's what I desire. That's what I have to give while in the Earth realm...and I don't know how I'm supposed to do that to the multitude of which He ordered.
That fact really bothers me.

Dec 12, 2012

Do Your Part


I will go before you and make the crooked places straight…Isaiah 45:2

Tonight at Bible study, it was brought to my attention that lately I've been the host of thorns, choking any chance of His Word to sprout forth from me.  With school, work, transitions, and attempting to get things settled...I became overwhelmed. And at some point that began to overtake my action for Him. For awhile now I've felt stuck in the same position...Continuing to feel overwhelmed, and continuing to allow my worries to hinder His orders. 
But no more.
Tonight will be a new beginning and I encourage anyone else who is going through the same to run to Him as well.
When you submit yourself to the Lord He says that He will go before you to prepare a way. To smooth the rough and straighten the crooked.
The difficult time you're facing is not the end! It is the beginning, and trust that God has been equipping you for this journey.
If you feel like you’re in a dry season, don’t look at your circumstances. Instead, look at the promise of God!
If you speak words of faith, God promises that He’ll anoint your head with oil and your cup will run over. He will refresh and anoint you to do what He’s called you to do. 
The problem is that we allow our attitude to dictate what we decide to believe, and when we want to believe it. Please, check that out and fix it.
Sop complaining.
Stop focusing on the negative.
Acquire an attitude of a child of God! One of praise and thanksgiving.
And if you're anything like me...stop being afraid to take a leap because things didn't work out the first few times.He's there with your plan and He's waiting for you to walk with Him. 

Do your part and just go.

In Christ,
Allie J.